Living with RSD/CRPS

Jay and I went to the cottage yesterday with his youngest daughter with my family. My siblings took Jay out in our boat. I know it's not the worst thing in the world, but I really wish that I could swim in the lake, go in the boat and go tubing/wakeboarding. It is hard to watch and sit on the dock as they pull away and wish soooo badly I could go too! They went for an hour, had a blast and came back. My cousin Matt also brought his 13 month old son and the kids played together all day. So adorable! We had a really wonderful day and got back at like 10:30 last night. I have been doing a lot more than I am capable of and with that comes more pain flares of course. Thank god I have my lidocaine infusion in 2 days. I was told not to carry more than 5 lbs as I keep irritating the nerves, but I have to say that I am certainly getting more toned the more I am around this baby. Just chasing a crawler & moving her around. Just a bit of toning ya think........and she is a big baby. Ador...

There have been a lot of changes in my life since June. I signed up for internet dating and met a bunch of nice guys. I had said all along that should I find a great guy then I wouldn't not get serious, but being serious just wasn't my intention. I met a wonderful guy named Jay. My life has taken such a positive twist since we met. I am so happy now. I never even realized that it was possible to be this happy! He is a couple years older than me and has 2 beautiful daughters. I am still undecided as to whether or not I will have biological children of my own. It's obviously a hard decision. I know that it can be done, but it is scary as no one can guarantee that I wouldn't get a lot worse......... For now I am totally content to be a part of his children's lives. They are adorable and I now feel like I have the meaning in my life that I was searching for. It has been a great summer and as my Bday gets closer, I know that my fall will be just as wonderful. Those sayi...